…is home. She came in last night as a result of a stolen purse and no ID. Has to get all new ‘stuff.’ As much as I hate her misfortune – phone, drivers license, make-up gone – I am happy. My daughter is home.
I love all my children. Sometimes one more than the other. Nature of the beast of motherhood, I guess.
My boys are attentive. They do as I ask, usually, and with no hesitation. They are sweet- tempered deep down, really deep, and always make me feel that what I’m asking is no biggie.
Lizzie is different. She will show displeasure with a statement I make, and we push each others buttons. Always have.
But I saw her when she was less than a minute old and was gone. Bamboozled. Probably because of miscarriages between Alan and she. No child has ever been as wanted.
I know her by heart. There are connections/wires/attachments between us that can’t be put into mere words. It’s physical and emotional and necessary to my existence. She has brought me and taught me more than I ever did for her. She is my breath.
When she is with me I’m at peace.
Sometimes.